STILL SEARCHING WITH NO LUCK.....

Well here i am again, it's Sunday evening, i thought i made a breakthrough but NO WAY.  I saw the name of an ancestor on a family tree but when i tried to research her, nothing.  Dead end once again.  I have come to accept either the records are wrong or my ancestor gave himself a new identity when he emigrated to Australia.  What shall i do next, should i just end off my research or keep trying, everybody tells me i have the wrong information but i am only going on what my ancestor put on his papers, so they can stop blaming ME.
I guess i will go on to the next family ancestor, what bad luck, those are in Ireland too, don't like
my chances.
I got stuck on my english ancestors and can go no further.
I guess i am stuck all the way around now.

WHY DID I START MY RESEARCH
Well, that is because i wanted to try and find some ancestor who perhaps had the same traits as i do.  In my own family i don't feel like a belong, i don't connect up with anbody and some relatives are very mean to me, demanding to know why i don't care about my family.  Well it is not true that i do not care, but, when a parent finds it easy  to love 4 children and not the other, something has to be wrong.  My own daughters have commented to me on numerous occasions that my mum only  liked my siblings, even my husband said he saw how i was treated differently.  My parents did everything for my sons but nothing for my daughters.  I went to her funeral and her sister had the gaul to go up me when she did not speak to her sister (my mum) for over 40 years, she must have been feeling guilty, i guess.  No need to take it out on me.

Maybe i need a new project because clearly this one did not end well.

I feel a great sense of disappointment, like i still do not belong anywhere.

Has anybody ever heard of Dr Marie Crowley, the archivist and historian who wrote a book
called Brothers and Sisters and Box Trees, about the Crowly Family of Trundle, NSW.  I read her book, it was very interesting, My family say we are related to that family, but i cannot see how.

They are the kind of family you would love to be connected to.

My next post will be on an entirely different subject.